How much can I stand sleepless?

I can only think about existence and I can only think..

escape..escape..escape..primitiveness..primitive ego..sick..sophistical...copmlicated..evolution..consumption..system..

I have useless hands..and eyes..and..

Enjoyable nights..and boring days...

Can't escape growing...and it is worse..and worse...tired of it..

who is more selfish?me or my family? Me.

How can I be tired without doing anything?

I watch films for hours..and so I accept much more that I'll never be able to make a film...

I'm the chosen one..the laziest one in the world..even thinking in this way..i'm trying to glorify myself..if you're not one of the "mosts",you're convicted to be ordinary..why to take offense then??

...lost...blasted..left himself..the more you pity yourself..the more you get bored...

Does life have a meaning? More money.more woman.more fame. And death again.

should I love winter more than spring,summer and autumn?..everyone is unhappy..I'm getting more ordinary..glorify again..applaud..make yourself against..! the man who always succeeds being unhappy!

Taking these notes and reading them when u need will be just like taking money from a cashomat..

I feel a qualm..how would an actor tell this without throwing out?

I wanna run and really get tired...

Big gloom..is it the man always talking about himself,or the man always talking about someone else?

being silent is an answer? Never talking..

text--

.persona.and its' bad faces...and everyone is liarr....knowing even others are so,too...and anyhow still acting......

--by A.G.Uslu