Once steady, solid firm in place

My life has turned into a quickened pace

Not knowing where when or how...

Or even how much time for moving to allow....

I feel free I feel also trapped

I feel sad, drained, and fully tapped.

To see him broken hearted one that you still care for....

To know you have said what will make him absent from you to adore..

I may be free ...but I also may now be alone

A thought that wakes me at night and chills the bone...

What will happen to me now? Will my fears go away?

Or will my guilty heartache and sadness stay?

Am I to be loathed for causing this sadness all around?

Or should I rejoice in my freedom that will hopefully soon abound?